Death of my dying parts

I don't want to let you go

I feel I let some of you go again today

I felt your dying presence inside of me

I don't want to hold you back

It's good that you stay behind

That I do not give you my mouth again

That you stay below the surface

That I stay silent where there were words before

It feels right to move on

Keeping you alive beyond these borders would be just wrong

I still miss you

You served me well

Sometimes

And sometimes not

I liked the feeling of letting you run wild and break something

My dear dying parts I love you

I loved you

"I did it for me.

I liked it.

I was good at it.

And I was really, I was alive."

And I hated you

You kept me small

You kept me weak

You kept me alive

I thank you for helping me stay alive

That was then

Now I am just not doing it anymore

You may rest now

Fire at the end my night watch. The morning has arrived.