Here I am, Dragon Woman

Sooo much energy! I love you!

You are here with me.

Finally.

Again!

It is all there. Der Tisch ist gedeckt. The Table is set.

What took you so long, dear Life Force?

Ah, it wasn’t you. It was me, this one here.

I shut you down.

I shut you out.

I was the one who wanted to feel small.

Feeling small is the familiar feeling.

So much nicer than having to deal with the fact that this HUGE current, this shaking vibration is here to stay.

This vibration of LIFE Force.

It’s not about Hornyness.

It’s about the LIFE Force itself.

And this song vibrates so beautifully with you: Om Namah Shivaya.

Potentiality.

The Light side.

Longing.

The Shadow side.

I like LIGHT.

I am LIGHT.

I know it.

And I feel, that you know it too, Dragon Woman?

Yes, this is also involves you.

But is it about you?

This one’s story?

My story?

No.

This is about me.

It is always about me.

How could it possibly be not about me.

One sentence remains to ring true which I said to you, to me, to LIFE itself on the long bench in Lucid Spitzi:

If we do not give it a try, then we know, that the contraction and the FEAR and the Shadow has won against the Light and the LOVE.

And I, this one here, this Thomas, this human being hitting the Keys on my MacBookPro from 2014, this one here has stopped believing into the field of Potentiality as well last night before falling asleep.

That Tuesday night I wanted to just fucking shut it off.

I wanted the Life Force to just move on and let me do my good old small German thing.

I wanted not to be bothered with the BIG World.

I wanted to become small again.

I told myself all the right reasons why this one here and the Dragon Woman should just let it pass by.

The pain of being in this body.

The pain of being caught in a 3D world, where time and space do play a role.

The pain of you living on an Island in the Sun and me living in a city next to a Forrest.

The pain of meeting you in a big fucking whirlpool of Paradoxes.

What’s whirling around in this Pool:

…Me finding my True Power

My True Power is not about being with You, Dragon Woman, it is about My Self and loving and living it with care for My Self and with care for Others

I took that Energy Template out of the 30 minute session in the Metamorphosis Training and embodied it in the circle with Peace in my Body

…I assume you saw that Peace in my body, when you approached me at Lunch and asked for a hug and I said no because I wanted to just enjoy that GOLDEN Peace a little longer just with my self and anchor it as deeply as I can in my GOLDEN Energy Template

…Me wanting to live in Peace with one of my biggest shadow whales, the whale of pushing woman away when the come too close to me and me not having the Power to keep my heart open

…You being sick of the old Pattern of you holding the space for men in your life who are too small for you

…You not trusting that this one here can hold his True Power in your presence

Where does this all go?

I do not know.

All I know is that my body informs me that it resists me shutting down the LIFE Force.

And this is a GOLDEN Pattern in my Life:

Whenever I felt the vibrational field of potentiality reaching out into this ones actual being and asked to be lived, asked to be embodied: then the Life Force woke me up between 4 and 5.

It was there in my life in sooo many years

2008.

2011.

2014.

2015.

2016.

2017.

2018.

2019.

2022.

Sometimes lingering around for some weeks, sometimes just sending a pulse of Energy in one single night and then vanishing again.

It was the raw power from the Source.

I love it.

I fear it.

I want it to stop.

And then I contract.

And then the field of Potentiality fades away and leaves me alone.

Haha, not really.

Because then the Pain starts again.

The pain of not living my True Self, true Power.

The pain of being caught in this body, this space and time.

The pain of feeling separated from the more beautiful Life that we all know for ourselves is possible.

Do I let FEAR win this time as well?

I do not know.

All I know is that I felt the impulse to be with you again, Dragon Woman.

Vibrate together.

Letting our Codes of Power inform the other Body.

What’s the biggest form of vibration and transfer of Codes?

SPIRITUAL SEXUAL SHAMANIC

Yes.

It is there.

It always is.

I know it.

You know it.

We desire the Power Codes of the other person.

Yes, it is about the other person and DOUBLE YES, it is about me!

It is always and only about me.

And for you it is always and only about yourself.

And that’s exactly the way it should be.

I wrote it to you on that Monday, when I was in Dresden and you in Berlin:

Me just doing my Thing.

You just doing your Thing.

And then we might do our thing together at some point ⭕️

Fucking Funny Paradox, huh?

Wanting the Codes of Power from the other person in the BIG WAY but knowing that there is a price to be paid.

And that Price is about these two incarnations going into Union of the Body, Mind and Soul.

I will always be your friend, Dragon Woman.

No matter the outcome of this enterprise: I will not leave you alone.

I will be there for you.

Because I love you.

Very simple:

I love You.

And it is part of my LIGHT pattern that I do not let people down when they need me.

I am there in a time of need.

That’s just me.

It is now 5:30 on a Wednesday Morning in Dresden that I write this and in 6 hours my Bus leaves to Berlin.

This is not about having Sex with you, Dragon Woman.

This is about the BIG Picture.

The LIFE FORCE itself, which I can feel running with less pulse through my body.

The Force wanted me to write this text.

It wanted me to send you this link.

It wanted me to show My Self, my Art to you.

It wanted to encourage you, Sister:

It’s all good.

It’s all good, you are safe with me.

I am the safest person you will ever meet.

You can open up with me.

You may let down your guard, your shield, you may surrender to me, you may let my Power Codes inform your WHOLE BEING in the sacred way.

You may lose your shame in being intimate with me.

That is my biggest MAGICAL POWER:

My Magic Wand.

My Lingam.

The GOLDEN Lingam.

It has healed woman, when I was in my True Self.

It has woman feeling contraction, when I was NOT in my True Self.

Well, where is this going?

I do not know.

And you don’t know.

I only know that expectations and ideals like "You are my Companion in Sacred Union" are not helpful.

YES, Fucking YES, I desire to be in Sacred Union as well.

I feel the potentiality of living it as partners with you.

And I do not know if we

Well, again, where is this going?

I do not know. I just know that exceptions and ideals are not helpful.

The ideal of a Sacred Union is beautiful and my whole being desires to live in Sacred Union.

And I know that ideals and the expectation of reaching it are the best way to prevent it from happening.

Expectations lead to contractions.

Contractions prevent Fun.

And that’s what lies at the core of it, right? Fun.

We just want some fun in our lives.

And from this then the pathway towards a Sacred Union might open up.

Well, again, where is this going?

I do not know.

And you don’t know.

And that’s great right?

I just know one thing:

I love You, Dragon Woman.